i had enuf. indeed the previous post had attracted alot of faithful readers comment. and 1 of the comment being made seems to be against me. fine. hey pal. u haven been thru the mental torment, the emotional hurts and stuffs. u arent there when things were being said and done. with regards my disapperance from SPCO. i have state it clear. i nid time fer my studies and work. yes. im not in any financial lack. but i have to work. im not a rich kid. but im neither a poor kid. i juz want to work hard for myself. and with regards of me shunning away all the concern of u ppl, im not shunning. and neither am i accepting them them. coz i had receive enuf betrayal from close friends. so close so close. resulting in the outcome of the guard i have. and why Leng was able to be so close to me.. most and foremost, she is the only fren in SPCO that knows exactly what i want. no contacting meaning cutting off all ties, dude. unresponsibilty. yes. indeed. im not being a very responsible VP. nt attending practice. i have my own reason why im not attending. to u, it might not be one. but i have my own priorities. like what i said. i set my own priorites. studies, church and work definately will come b4 my CCA. but i do make it a point and tell u in advance when i cant make it for practices. as for holidays practices, from what i know the teachers aint there. thus im not attending it. when sch reopen, i believe everyone knows that im goin fer operation. and i believe i have told most ppl in SPCO very earli that i cant attend the practice. ive not grudges abt u or anyone. but i juz hate the way u accuse me. i dun have the need to explain to u on everything that i do. u aint my parents... i dun even explain every action to my bf.. do u think i will nid to explain everything to everyone of u?! i know my tone isnt good and it is damn shit obvious on who im referring. i dun wan to become what my previous comm become. im trying hard to attend every practices i can when sch reopen. im having objections that neither one of u will ever face.. i juz simply dont wish to share out.. it isnt me not trusting anyone of u.. but im juz not of someone that will share my problems. and i hate to. i dun wish to attend the nxt combine prac having to face u and answer to everything and making myself looks like im the one in fault or u the one in fault. why have i come to this point and decide to prioritise my prioties again coz i have realise how much i have wasted... time and money... 1 year in secondary and 1 year in polytechnic is of so much difference.. 1 year in polytechnic means 1000+ bucks fees. and i am going to waste a total of 4years in polytechnic studying something that i know for sure that i will never ever do when i go into the working world. and if u know how much ur parents are paying every semester for ur polytechnic... u will know... 4years of polytechnic fees aint small... perhaps that explain why i have to work and provide for my needs. and i have to earn money fer my future studies. im blogging things down not to get responses from anybody but juz to voice out whats on my mind. thats it. bye
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